April 29, 2008
Jinny’s notes: Below I have copied a dialogue that occurred between Spirit and me as I was confronting a sorrow. I have been in a period of loss and then grief the last two years. Words in quotation marks indicate those that come from Spirit.

I know you are right. Sometimes I feel like there are innocents who get crushed or damaged. I just feel their pain. Some times it is difficult to see these two small boys as souls living out their life plans.

"Of course, it is, dearest. Just as we feel watching you and seeing your heart crushed. There is always an agony in witnessing a soul’s pain even within the context of important life learning."

Some times it is very difficult sitting in the “now” and remembering to stay there. I keep trying to force or form some closure, to try and protect myself from pain.

"There is no way to do that, child, without creating another illusion. And as you know the illusion will finally be broken and then there is even greater pain. So as difficult as it is, the only place where there is ultimate peace is in the acceptance of the “now,” the present moment. There is no pain in it, only the opportunity for peace. Even in the moments of your grief, you see that pain is intensified by the “stories [illusions]” the mind creates. That is what increases the pain. Opening to pain allows it to be dissipated quickly in the moment. So that is why we spend so much energy encouraging you to see at this point in your life this is the only place for you to live pain-free as you can be in a human world. This is what you have—the present moment. All else is illusion. Feel our love and comfort in this moment? It is always available in the “now.” Always."

Yes, I do see and understand. I will remind myself when I go backwards or too far forwards. Thank you for your clarity, your comfort, and your words.